I got an email today from Patricia, the vet I'll be travelling to India with. The dates are set. October 29-November 12. I feel as though I am somehow breathing a sigh of relief and hyperventilating at the same time. The money is freaking me out. I've been waiting to take care of some things until the dates were set (vaccines, visa, etc), and now that they are set, the cost of all these pre-trip details is adding up.
I immediately started posting things for sale on craigslist. And then I, quite dramatically, flailed myself out on my bedroom floor and began to pray.
God showed me very recently how abundantly and generously He provides (a new car, money, etc), and somehow I still doubt that He'll provide for India. As if I only get one good provision a year, and I just used it up on a car. So I am praying for a right perspective, for belief, for faith. I have asked God to provide the money to go (for months I have done so), and the minute I find out the cost of vaccines, I lose all faith and start considering selling drugs. Or a kidney. I hear you can get a lot for one of those.
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